Black Powder Monologue Diary

Chapter 1 1 Monologue

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2020. 1, 1

In fact, I am a person who does not like to keep a diary.

Diaries are not suitable for the fast-paced life of modern society. I have always felt that this kind of thing only exists in the inner monologues used for transitions in literary movies, or important props used to pave the way for turning points in dog-blood idol dramas.

I don't watch literary movies very much, and I don't watch idol dramas very much.I am a cultural desert.

The only idol drama that was dragged to watch by girls in the same class when I was in junior high school. That idol drama was a huge hit back then.I still remember the name of the idol drama, but I have almost forgotten the plot. Now I only remember the overly beautiful big eyes of the heroine in the drama, and the series of deceptive behaviors she wrote in her diary for revenge against the male protagonist.As a result, the diary was discovered by the hero, and he cried and explained that it was not like that.

What a fool, who would write a diary for a normal person?

Until now, I still think that such things as diaries exist just to be peeked at.

However, I absolutely hate showing emotions on my face.For example, when I wrote this sentence, I was very disgusted in my heart, but in fact there was no expression on my face.

So, in some respects, I still admit that journaling is beneficial.At least you can express your emotions correctly, as the teacher often advises me, communicate more with others.

Writing a diary can also be regarded as a way of communication. There is no difference between talking to yourself and talking to others.

Today's date is very good, January 1st, and the weather is also very good, a sunny day that I haven't seen for a long time.I think it's also good to use this day as a new beginning.

Maybe, I'm starting something new.

It's just that I may not be able to insist on writing a diary every day.One is because my life is so boring that I have nothing to write about.Second, I really don't like to record what I do every day like completing a task. This is really torture for me.So, whenever you want to write, just write, just follow your heart.

Well, today, that's all.

2020. 1, 15

It's three o'clock in the morning, I woke up very early, and I didn't feel sleepy.I got up and turned on the light and sat at the table. I looked through my previous diary and found that I haven't written it for a long time.I also found that I forgot to tell about one of the most important reasons why I decided to write a diary.

Last Christmas, the teacher in the school's psychological consultation room said that my situation was not very good and asked me to try to make some changes.I'm reluctant, but I'm going to do it anyway.She asked me to think more about happy things in my daily life, think more about things I like, and record them.I thought about it for a long time, and felt that the only person who could make me feel happier was Tan Ling, a female star.

I admit that I am superficial, and I like Tan Ling because she is beautiful.But who doesn't love beautiful women?She has a pair of very beautiful big eyes, the eyes are watery, pure and with a little charm, her body is delicate and frail, and she is pitiful.It's like the distressed deer in my favorite fairy tale book when I was a child.

When I was young, I read that fairy tale many times, almost to the point where I could memorize it, and the picture books were all worn out by me.I've always used that fairy tale as a lifeline for my unhappy childhood, and just thinking about that fairy tale makes all the pain disappear.

In my sophomore year, when I saw Tan Ling on TV for the first time, I felt that her appearance perfectly blended with the little deer in that fairy tale.It's hard for me to describe that feeling, in short, it was the moment when the heart was hit.

Tan Ling is a person who is equally beautiful no matter the refined picture or the raw picture. She is beautiful when she is reading a book, when she is participating in activities, and when she is eating. I think she will be beautiful even if she picks her nose.

No, female stars don't pick their noses.At least, Tan Ling would not.

In fact, it didn't take long for Tan Ling to really become popular. When I first saw her, she was still playing a role that couldn't even be called the third female lead in a bloody drama.I have been acting for many years, but it has been tepid.Later, he acted in a popular historical drama, and against the background of many rough actors in it, he looked extraordinarily pure and beautiful, so he became popular.

I am not a crazy Amway idol, a junior high school girl who helps idols to make data, and votes %2C to pick up the airport.Therefore, it is impossible to be a qualified groupie.If I like Tan Ling, I just watch her TV dramas and movies on time, and when I have money, I buy the products she endorses.Of course I will not buy a lot, I am a poor man, I regard money as important as my life.

Strictly speaking, Tan Ling is not a qualified actor.Her acting skills are not very good, at most she barely passed, this is an undeniable fact.Since his debut, the roles and personalities he has played have been the same, his lines have been well-spoken, and his facial expressions are very simple.Just because the image of the character in the play is pleasing, and a pretty face has gained a good impression, it won't be scolded too badly by the audience.Therefore, I am very disgusted. Some fans said that her acting skills exploded, and they crazily boasted that she is a powerful new-generation actor.

No need, really no need.Tan Ling didn't go to act, just stood there, just being a vase, that's fine, as many people would like her.

Most of the fans I come into contact with attach their own mate selection criteria to their idols, dreaming of falling in love with them.But I may be a fake fan, I never thought that I would fall in love with Tan Ling.

I only like Tan Ling's pretty face, and her other things have nothing to do with me.Moreover, people like me are not worthy of love. Anyone who falls in love with me will really jump into the fire pit.

What's more, Tan Ling already has a boyfriend.I don't have to think about it at all.

ah.Speaking of Tan Ling's boyfriend, there is really a long talk.Although I like Tan Ling, I really, really hate her boyfriend, Ji Shanye.

At the beginning, from the mobile phone Weibo, I saw that the two of them forwarded each other's Weibo and sent a simple heart. When the official announced their love, I couldn't believe it.After being stunned for a long time, I didn't recover, thinking that there was a problem with the Weibo data.

When I realized it, I was very angry for a while, and almost wanted to take off Tan Ling.But then I thought about it, because I hate Ji Shanye, it's not very rational to put my emotions on Tan Ling's head.What's more, I only liked Tan Ling's face, and nothing else about her had anything to do with me.

So, I quickly adjusted my mentality and continued to be a loyal beauty fan.

However, other fans are not like me.The news of their official love announcement can almost be said to have bombarded the entire entertainment circle.Three days after the topic, there are still news related to it on Weibo hot searches.On Tan Ling's side, the fans were quite kind and happily wished her that she had found her home.But Ji Shanye's side was not so peaceful.

After the love affair was made public, the fans slowly turned from shock at the beginning to anger, like crazy, on Weibo, urging him to take back his words and break up with Tan Ling.Saying that she has a lot of black history, that she is not a good woman, and telling him to run away, there are very few people who agree.

I actually understand that it's not that Ji Shanye's fans don't want him to fall in love, they just don't want him to fall in love with Tan Ling.After all, compared with his reputation, Tan Ling is far worse than him. In their view, Tan Ling is just a scheming girl who wants to use Ji Shanye to gain power.

Most people like Ji Shanye and hate Tan Ling.I am quite special, I like Tan Ling, but I hate Ji Shanye.

I’ve talked a lot today, so that’s all for now, I’m going to close the diary.

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