rebirth retreat

Chapter 17

After carefully moving out of the ward, and turning his head to make sure that no one was following him, Gude took a step forward, enduring his stride and walking in the direction Tang Qian left just now.

Goode walked all the way, looking anxiously for Tang Qian and that possible figure in the surrounding wards and doctor's office, causing the passing nurses to turn their heads frequently.

No, no, none!Where did Tang Qian go?

After searching the entire corridor, Gude couldn't find Tang Qian.Standing at the end of the corridor, he clutched his right chest that was throbbing with anxiety, and frowned angrily.

Could he be played by Tang Qian again? !

Just as Gude was about to get angry, the door of the emergency escape stairs beside him was suddenly opened, and a warm and strong hand tightly grasped his wrist, pulling him in—

"Your uncle Tang Qian - oh!" Gude blurted out an angry curse after seeing who was catching him, but then Tang Qian tightly covered his mouth.

"Shh, do you want to attract Yan Dongting and the others, baby." Tang Qian whispered next to Gude's ear, and the hot breath he exhaled hit Gude's ear, which made his skin crawl.

"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!" Goode struggled quickly, muttering something in his mouth.

"Tang Qian, let him go." A familiar voice suddenly sounded from behind.Gude was stunned for a moment, and immediately stopped struggling, and stared wide-eyed, looking behind Tang Qian in disbelief.

The body he used to be most familiar with for 21 years is now occupied by other souls, standing in front of him alive.

He had seen the face countless times in the mirror, but because of that person, he became a little unfamiliar.

Sensing Gu De's reaction, Tang Qian finally let go of him, allowing him to walk towards Gu Liuguang.

"Tang Qian, go out," Gu Liuguang looked at Gu De with complicated eyes, "I'll talk to him alone."

Tang Qian smiled, resigned himself to his fate and walked outside the door to let the two of them relax.

In the corridor, these two young people who had encountered the same disaster but accidentally broke into each other's lives stood facing each other as if they were looking in a mirror. The light projected from the huge transparent glass on the side deeply imprinted their figures on the ground.

Gude stared blankly at the familiar face in front of him for a long time before murmuring:

"Gu Liuguang, is that you?"

"kindness."

After this conversation, the two fell into silence again.

It's not that they don't want to talk, but that they don't know how to speak to each other.

What should I say?Do you introduce yourself?It seems that it is no longer needed.Homework?It seems a bit strange...

Good suddenly laughed, and there were many emotions hidden in that smile and laughter—relief, peace of mind, melancholy, and tolerance for everything.

They didn't say anything, but they seemed to be connected with each other, and they immediately understood what the other party wanted to confide.Infected by Gude's smile, Gu Liuguang's heart that had been hanging around seemed to have finally found his belonging. The unprecedented ease and joy swelled from his heart and spread to the corners of his mouth. Those eyes that Gude was most familiar with were full of dissatisfaction. The vicissitudes and tranquility in line with the age crushed the brilliance floating around in his eyes, so bright that it was hard to breathe.

He suddenly felt that Gu Liuguang was like an amber wrapped in the world for many years. The more he experienced the vicissitudes of life, the more precious and dazzling he became.

"I thought Gu Liuguang couldn't laugh." Goode couldn't help but teased aloud.

"I also thought that I would never laugh again in my life." Seeing Gude's contagious smile, Gu Liuguang murmured.

Goode looked down at the plaster neck collar and crutches on Gu Liuguang's body, and asked with concern, "Is the injury okay?"

"What about you?"

"pretty good."

"Me too." After a pause, Gu Liuguang suddenly apologized to him in a low voice: "I'm sorry, if it wasn't for me, none of this would have happened."

Gude felt sore in his heart, but he still smiled and said: "It has nothing to do with you, life and death are destiny, it is all determined by God."

Gu Liuguang was stunned.His idea...is it that simple?

"Besides, without that car accident, how could we have gotten into what we are now by a blessing in disguise?" Goode laughed.

"A blessing in disguise? Don't you want to go back to your original body?" Gu Liuguang's eyes were full of astonishment.

Goode turned his head and looked at the blue sky beyond the glass wall. A small bird happened to fly across the air, drawing a beautiful arc.

"Do not want to."

"Why?" Gu Liuguang frowned, remembering Nana who was still waiting for him in the dormitory, "Aren't you still unfinished studies? Aren't all your relatives still there? Why don't you want to come back?"

"Probably because..." Gude dragged out a long syllable, recalling the past events of Gu Liuguang he had heard recently, and said, "Probably because I don't want you to come back."

Gu Liuguang's heart was shocked, "But you have to give up a lot of things like this, and bear my past for no reason."

"You say it's the past, so it's not worth worrying about. The most important thing is what will happen in the future." Goode said disapprovingly, "Don't worry, I will play your role well and make those who look down on you regret it." " He raised his fist and gestured in the air, "I will beat anyone who dares to provoke me! Especially the one named Yan!"

Gu Liuguang's heart skipped a beat, and he looked at him with a strange expression: "You... know everything?"

"Well, I've heard what Xiao Qiao said." Good said embarrassingly, with the embarrassment of peeping into other people's privacy.

Gu Liuguang unconsciously showed a sense of alienation, he took a step back without any trace, and said without saying: "Nana is here, and I came here secretly by myself."

"Smelly girl!" Goode almost jumped up.

"She misses and worries about her brother very much." Gu Liuguang said, "Are you really going to abandon her?"

Gude fell silent, he looked at Gu Liuguang quietly, not knowing what he was thinking.

After thinking for a long time, as if putting down a very important treasure, Goode sighed: "Nana is a naughty ghost, please help me take care of her."

Gu Liuguang had a sore nose, took a deep breath, stabilized his emotions, and said firmly, "I will."

After a pause, he looked down at the intertwined shadows of the two on the steps, and said, "I once had a younger sister too."

Gude said with a puzzled "Huh": "Why didn't I hear Xiao Qiao mention it, and it wasn't mentioned in your information."

"She died very early."

Gude was shocked: "...how could it be?"

"She died of a heart attack," Gu Liuguang seemed to see that little figure again, and the expression on Gu Liuguang's face became depressed and painful, "I killed her."

Gude was so surprised that he couldn't speak, and when he regained his senses, he looked at Gu Liuguang cautiously but expectantly: "Can you tell me... about your past?"

"Haven't you heard it already?"

"I want to hear you say it again."

On the empty escape stairs, the sunlight elongated the shadows of the two men leaning side by side against the wall, accompanied by soft whispers around them, as if time had frozen.

"Gu Liuguang, his parents live abroad, and he graduated from a famous university... Do you believe these things? Oh, they are all fake.

"I'm just an illegitimate child who escaped to work around without even studying in high school.

"That woman gave birth to me and Ningning not out of love, but to use us as a tool for her to make money and avoid usury."

Shocked, Gu De raised his hand and pressed it on Gu Liuguang's shoulder, sending him comfort.

"Later, Ning Ning was found to have a heart attack. After learning that she could no longer use it and had to spend money on medical treatment, that woman wanted to throw her away regardless of Ning Ning's life or death. I don't want to see my only sister being killed. Abandoned, desperately took her to escape, and came to this city."

Those who didn't dare to touch, like nightmares, but extremely precious memories slowly floated in his mind, bringing pain to Gu Liuguang, but at the same time, there was a faint nostalgia.

"Ning Ning needs a lot of money for medical treatment and surgery. I do part-time jobs that I can do during the day, and sing in countless bars at night. It is very bitter and tiring, but very happy. Then one day, someone came to me and said that I look good. , invited me to make a movie. Although the scenes are short, the salary is not low, which is much higher than that of working around. I was afraid of being found by that woman, so I refused to go. But in order to raise money for Ningning, I agreed. "

"Later... I met Yan Dongting there..." Recalling the scene when he saw Yan Dongting for the first time many years ago, Gu Liuguang closed his eyes, and his face became more and more ugly.That was the heaviest memory in his life, even if his body changed to another soul, he never forgot a single bit of it.

Gude's pupils shrank suddenly, and his hands trembled slightly.That's right, he remembered what Xiao Qiao had said, that it was at that time that Yan Dongting fell in love with Gu Liuguang.

"Later, what happened between you and him?" Good swallowed hard and asked.

"Looking at him like that, can you imagine that he's gay?" Gu Liuguang raised the corners of his lips sarcastically, and said in a hoarse voice, "He tried his best to get close to me, just because he likes men. But... I'm not."

"At the closing banquet of that movie, I was drunk, and he took me back. But he didn't send me home, but took me to him and locked me up for three days. These three days What happened here was a nightmare for me."

"I really wanted to die at the time." Gu Liuguang said hoarsely, "But I can't ignore Ningning..."

"Since then, he has tried every means to get me to agree to be with him. I wanted to avoid him, but he had already cut off all my retreats. Later... the movie was released, and he took advantage of my absence I took Ningning to watch the premiere. Ningning was very happy and told me after she came back that she could finally let the whole world know what a great brother she has. I didn’t dare to think that if she Knowing that her favorite brother is actually such an unbearable person, she will be so disappointed. But I didn't expect that my concealment from Ningning would become a means for that woman to control me and threaten me.

"After the movie was released, that woman came to City A and found me with a secretly taken photo of me and Yan Dongting. She asked me to do things for her and give her money. If I didn't give her the money, she would show Ningning the photo. , or exposed to the media. I am very scared, I can't let Ningning know, she is so young, how can she bear such a truth? I have to accept plays and sing everywhere, and give her the film and performance fees.

"Yan Dongting was very angry when he found out, so he controlled those who gave me job opportunities. Because of him, I couldn't get plays everywhere, and the bar also found reasons to fire me. I couldn't make money, and that woman kept threatening me with photos. I, I was really driven to a dead end."

The scene from many years ago reappeared in his mind, Gu Liuguang's eyes were colorless, as if he had lost his soul.

"I was really desperate, so I went to the director who said he was willing to help me, and begged him to help me. He agreed, but he also put forward a condition." Gu Liuguang trembled uncontrollably, "he said, This is the rule of this circle. If you want to get something in return, you have to pay a price. I feel embarrassed, but what can I do? I don't want to beg Yan Dongting, I don't want Ningning to have an accident, what else can I do?"

"You, you really—" Goode widened his eyes in shock, did he really agree?

"No, later Yan Dongting came and forcibly took me away. He was very angry when he knew that I would rather kneel to others than bow to him. He locked me in his room again and ordered me not to go anywhere. Taking a deep breath, he said, "That woman called me a lot that day, but because of Yan Dongting's relationship, I didn't receive any of them. She was probably in a hurry, so she really went to Ningning..."

Having said that, Gu Liuguang couldn't continue, buried his face in his palms, and tears welled up in his eyes.

That day was actually like today.When he went out, Ningning was still sleeping soundly.But when he finally escaped from Yan Dongting and returned home, Ning Ning was... not there.

He will never forget that Ningning's small body was lying lifelessly on the floor, holding those photos tightly in his hand.

"I killed Ningning..."

[Brother promised Ning Ning, if one day Ning Ning is gone, brother will live a good life for Ning Ning, okay? 】

I'm sorry, Ningning, my brother almost broke his promise...

"Nana will be your Ningning from now on." Gu De shook Gu Liuguang's hand, his voice was choked up, "She will love her best brother in the world as deeply as Ningning."

"……thanks."

"Where is Ning Ning buried? When I'm discharged from the hospital, let's go and have a look together?"

"it is good."

"Don't be sad, it will pass." Goode comforted.

The door of the escape ladder was suddenly pushed open, and Tang Qian walked in quickly.

"Go, someone is coming!"

Gu Liuguang trembled all over, and Gude noticed it, and quickly comforted him: "He's here to look for me, I'm leaving first. You leave quickly, don't be discovered by him!"

Gu Liuguang looked at him with a complex expression, hesitated to speak several times, and finally only turned into an order with unknown meaning, "Stay away from him."

"I know."

"During the interview, if you asked about going down the mountain..."

"Don't worry, I can do it well, trust me." Goode interrupted him, said firmly, then stood up and walked out quickly.

"After the interview, I asked Tang Qian to send you all my account passwords. I'll leave first. Remember, keep in touch!"