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Chapter 127 Counting down with you

The news of Lu Yuxing's mother's death caused quite a stir under the media reports.However, the speculation of passers-by and the comfort of fans gradually disappeared with the end of the funeral.

Mourning loved ones went back to their homes and went on with their lives as if everything had returned to normal.

Only a few members of the Lu family were really affected.

Lu Junxiong rejected his son's invitation and lived alone in the former house.Cui Yuqin was buried in the cemetery, and Lu Junxiong went up the mountain to see her every now and then.He didn't say anything, just held the flowers and stared blankly at the smiling face of his dead wife in the photo.

This healthy man has aged a lot in just one week, with a stooped figure and gray hair.

Yu Feng, Wan Jie, and He Li all attended the funeral, only Tang Ruize failed to catch up.When Tang Ruize arrived, the funeral was already over.With a tired look on his face, Tang Tang asked him if he was in trouble, but he didn't say anything, answered the phone, and left in a hurry.

Among all the hurt relatives, the most worrying one is Lu Yuxing.

After the funeral, Ye Xue gave him a vacation and asked him to recuperate at home.Tang Tang has to be busy preparing for the new album, and there are always one or two days a week when he leaves early and returns late.

When the two were together, Tang Tang always felt that there was no smile on Lu Yuxing's face.To be precise, there is no expression.Whether taking a bath together or lying in the yard basking in the sun, his eyes always look confused and empty, he is taciturn, and even when kissing, he is always lacking in interest.

When he had nothing to do, he sat by the bed alone, opened the drawer, took out the wisteria pocket watch and stared blankly.

Tang Tang never saw him cry, but felt that his condition was even worse.

One morning, Tang Tang got up early to go to work and found that Lu Yuxing hadn't slept all night.He kissed Lu Yuxing distressedly, and put him to sleep like a child, but Lu Yuxing grabbed his arm tightly and refused to let him go to work.

His eyes were bloodshot after staying up all night, his nerves were tense and he couldn't get sleep for a long time, showing a look of loss of control.

"Don't go." He tugged at Tang Tang. "You don't go out."

Tang Tang looked at him, his original deep eyebrows seemed to be sunken again, and his cheeks seemed to lose some flesh.He sighed, knowing why Lu Yuxing was anxious.

After experiencing such a painful and powerless thing, it is inevitable that they will see their own shadows in Cui Yuqin.

Tang Tang remembered the scene at the beach again.

He shook his head nervously, trying to convince Lu Yuxing.

"Ah Xing, I'm going to work, and Xiao Li's car is already parked outside the door." Tang Tang touched Lu Yuxing's face, "It'll be fine. I'll be back after you sleep."

Like a battered leopard, Lu Yuxing rubbed against his hand wearily.

He can't sleep.

Every day and night since the incident, he couldn't let go of it all, and couldn't fall asleep.Every time he closed his eyes, something powerful and terrifying would grab his throat and force him to tell himself that there was nothing he could do to escape.

"When I'm done, let's see a psychiatrist together." Tang Tang kissed him, "Okay?"

Lu Yuxing nodded numbly. After a while, he sat up from the bed, rubbed his temples painfully, and said:

"I'll accompany you to work."

He insisted on going, but Tang Tang couldn't resist him, so he took a double serving of milk and sandwiches from the refrigerator, went out with him, and got into Xiao Li's car.

Xiao Li glanced at Lu Yuxing from the rearview mirror and was startled.

"Mr. Lu, are you okay?"

Tang Tang waved his hand quietly, signaling him not to say any more.Xiao Li understood, kept silent, and drove to the recording studio.

There were two people standing in the recording studio, one was He Li and the other was the music producer.

Tang Tang was worried about Lu Yuxing's state, but facing outsiders, he remained as usual.He greeted the two of them politely, and He Li chatted with him a few words to express his condolences.

Lu Yuxing responded casually, then sat quietly on the sofa outside the recording room.

"When you're tired, go to the next door and sleep for a while." Tang Tang stuffed his breakfast into his arms, tapped his cheek, and turned to record a song.

Seeing that Lu Yuxing looked tired, He Li sighed, went up and patted him on the shoulder.

There is a layer of soundproof glass between the recording studios, and the producer is adjusting the complicated buttons on the panel.On the other side of the glass, Tang Tang stood in front of the microphone, wearing earphones, and nodded to the producer.

Lu Yuxing was sitting in the corner, he couldn't hear Tang Tang's voice, it was like pressing the mute button.

Tang Tang is almost 28 years old.

As an idol, his value has begun to lose rapidly in some people's eyes.He Li wants him to transform. This time the album focuses on lyrical slow songs, and there are a few extremely sad songs in it.

Lu Yuxing looked at him quietly, like a loyal dog guarding his master, his eyes never leaving.

He watched Tang Tang singing with forgetfulness, shaking his shoulders obsessively, his right hand tightly clutching the wrist of his left hand.

The tattoo of wisteria petals swayed in front of his eyes, and he could vaguely see the scar underneath.

Lu Yuxing lowered his head slowly, stroked the ring on his ring finger, turned his wrist, and looked at the same hideous scar.

In the recording studio, Tang Tang sang and choked up for some reason.

The producer sighed, but He Li stopped him from calling a stop and asked Tang Tang to continue singing.

Except for the producer wearing headphones, no one heard his singing.They just watched from a distance through the glass, and saw the singer in the glass room holding back tears and continuing to sing. After the last line was sung, he finally couldn't help it, and squatted in the middle of the empty recording studio, holding his head and crying .

Lu Yuxing looked at him, feeling like a knife was twisting his heart.

Tang Tang bowed and curled up into a ball, his thin back shrugged.

In just half a year, he lost his close relative again, and watched as Cui Yuqin, who was comparable to his biological mother, was fatally stabbed.And his lover fell into a terrible trough again, as if he had returned to the time when he wanted to die, and the despair in his eyes was familiar to him.

He was burdened with heavy memories and curses brought by backtracking, and the defensive line he was holding on to finally collapsed at this moment.

After crying for an unknown amount of time, the door of the recording studio was opened and closed again.

The producer turned off the monitor, and no one knew the conversation inside.

Lu Yuxing sat down on the ground in front of him, with his two long legs resting on his side, and leaned over to hug him into his arms.

He didn't say anything, and let Tang Tang hold his shoulders and cry loudly.

They hugged each other, Lu Yuxing said something in a low voice, kissed Tang Tang again, and rubbed his back comfortingly.

After a while, Tang Tang finally calmed down.He cried dizzily, and vented all his grief and guilt before carefully suppressing the despair in his heart, holding Lu Yuxing's hand, and being led out of the recording studio by him.

"I'm laughing." Tang Tang hoarsely apologized to He Li and the producer.

He Li had never seen this little ancestor so sad, so he patted his head distressedly, and said, "It's okay, I also said a lot of things to Ruize, and it's not your fault."

He folded his arms and sighed. "Go back and rest, relax, and come back to work after adjusting."

Tang Tang nodded, and walked with Lu Yu in his arms.

They didn't go home either, and walked unsteadily on the street.It was a working day, and there were no people on the street. Occasionally, I would meet a few old men and women who were shopping for vegetables and returning home. Even if they recognized them, they would just take a look at them from a distance and not bother them.

Walking and walking, I actually arrived at the university city.

"Go back and have a look?" Lu Yuxing asked.

Tang Tang nodded in a muffled voice, and the two deftly walked around the main entrance, found an empty side door, and slipped in.

The alma mater is still the same as it was a few years ago. On the playground, students do training in twos and threes, and in the library, students come and go in a hurry.

The two passed the community where they used to live, passed the club's activity center, and finally stopped in front of the small restaurant.

Lu Yuxing led Tang Tang in, and said to the front desk, "Miss Boss, two copies of Shuangpi Nai."

The proprietress was yawning and watching TV, still looking the same.Hearing this, without looking up, she took two copies from the freezer and handed them to Lu Yuxing.

"Thank you."

Tang Tang paid the money with a smile, turned around and left with Shuangpi Nai in his arms.

The proprietress was slightly taken aback, and looked up from her small TV. The wind chimes at the door jingled, leaving her with two backs, one tall and one short.

The breeze was blowing, and there was no one at the entrance of the theater, except for a floor-to-ceiling promotional poster standing in the corner.

Tang Tang took a look and sat down on the bench by the door.

"How did the drama club become like this?" He took a sip of Shuangpi Nai, looked at the content on the poster, and sighed, "Fu Huadao and actors are not as good as we were back then."

Lu Yuxing sat down beside him, and above their heads was a big tree with enough shade, the shadows of the tree swayed and fell mottledly on their shoulders.

After staying like this for a while, the gloom in my heart seemed to have dissipated a lot.

"Tangtang," Lu Yuxing said suddenly, "Before my memory 'backtracked', how did you get along with the me at that time?"

As soon as these words came out, Tang Tang was stunned for a moment, then turned to look at him.

A leaf fell on his shoulder, Lu Yuxing reached out to pick it off for him, and looked at him indifferently.

Tang Tang's clear eyes looked at him, and Lu Yuxing's serious expression made him laugh out of nowhere.

There was a long-lost smile on his face, and the dimples on his cheeks were extremely cute.

"Fool," Tang Tang poked his face, "There is no such thing."

Lu Yuxing was taken aback, and Tang Tang continued: "Since it's something that hasn't been made public, it's what I say!"

"..."

The two fell into a brief silence.

Tang Tang watched Lu Yuxing's face darken visibly to the naked eye, and finally realized that he had played it off.

"You also forged the diary?" he asked.

Tang Tang nodded.

"You told Jiang Bing that we are a couple in disguise, in order to make Xu Jingwen give up?"

Tang Tang nodded again.

Lu Yuxing stared at him and said, "But I clearly remember that seven years ago, we had a quarrel in Vancouver... You said, back in time, I accepted your confession."

Tang Tang's heart skipped a beat, and he suddenly raised his head to look at him. He didn't expect that he could still remember what he said a few years ago so clearly.

"I originally thought that you were referring to something in the university." Lu Yuxing said helplessly, "Now it seems that it is something I don't know about."

The blue tree shadow shrouded the top of the head, Tang Tang lowered his head and his shoulders drooped.

"Is there any way to remind me?" Lu Yuxing held his hand, "Tangtang, time is running out, I don't want to live without knowing."

"Is hypnosis not enough?"

Tang Tang felt a little regretful and shook his head.

"No." He leaned on the bench, avoiding Lu Yuxing's sight. "Hypnosis can remind you of things you've forgotten because of your illness, but it doesn't work on this one."

"Because... your amnesia is because the wisteria was damaged at that time..."

Before he could finish speaking, the phone in his pocket rang.

Lu Yuxing signaled him to answer the phone first, Tang Tang took out his mobile phone and pressed answer, He Li's voice came from over there:

"Little ancestor! Something happened to your brother!"

The author says:

The chapter name comes from Leslie Cheung's "Countdown with You"

"To welcome the end, to embrace the fall."