I meet a lot of people in my life, keep a distance from anyone in my life, but only want to meet you

I thought that my whole life would fall into the abyss of darkness; I thought that my whole life would be abandoned; I thought that my whole life would be a lonely existence; You, I just remember you,,,, I grabbed the last breath of life, looking for the dream that my fifth brother brought me, it started with your rubbing shoulders coming and going, I can’t remember at this second One second wasted, in order to catch you, only by catching you, can I be saved; in order to catch you, I crossed the distance between life and death just to meet you,,, but whether I will meet you or not Will I meet you; I am finally going to be resurrected, where are you now,,,,, Content tags: Urban love, fate, rebirth, love and killing┃ Search keywords: Protagonist: YZ, ZM ┃ Supporting role: