msmithbooks Chapter 21 The Unloved Third Person 3
Chapter 21 The Unloved Third Person 3
They all said that if Jian Shou died, then Qiao Anshan would also die.
If you are still alive, why do you always feel hard to breathe, why do you always feel like a knife is piercing your heart, why do you...become nothing.
A person who is left with only a lingering body is nothing more than a walking dead.
But Qiao Anshan can disguise himself very well.
He can stop talking to people so he won't say hurtful things again; he can stop talking to people so he doesn't have to smile at their concerns; he can work hard day and night to numb himself .
In the dead of night, during the moments of insomnia, Qiao An would briefly regain his thoughts.
He was thinking, if human life can disappear without a trace so easily, then there must be nothing to worry about.
So how can we be carefree?No love, no hate, no anger or resentment.
His A-Shou is really heartless.
The company Joan Anshan works in is a newly listed company. Although it won't force the employees to work overtime to squeeze out the surplus labor force, the workload assigned to them is absolutely heavy.
Joan Anshan was the only one among them who didn't have to arrange tasks. He would take the initiative to work overtime and stay up late, even without eating a bite of food a day.
This situation has become particularly serious since the summer of 2016. Joan Anshan's inhuman work intensity made him lose weight at a speed visible to the naked eye.
Coupled with the daily pale complexion, such a tall person looks very weak.
Gradually, people began to gossip behind his back, saying that he was still so young, and his ambition to be a leader was so obvious.
Qiao Anshan knew about these remarks, but he always ignored them. No one knew what he wanted, and no one could afford it.
This day, he went to work early as usual, and the company gate was in front of him, but Qiao Anshan stopped while clutching his stomach, his lonely and tasteless eyes overflowed with pain.
The sudden severe abdominal pain made him unable to move, and a cold sweat broke out on his forehead in an instant.
Because of long-term irregular work and rest and abnormal diet, he suffered from stomach problems. He often feels abdominal pain, which is usually relieved by taking pills.
But there has never been a stomachache as violent as this one, as if being cut with a knife or burned with fire.
Qiao Anshan's temples started to heat up suddenly, and he passed out directly downstairs to the company in the next second. He couldn't even step in the door of the company.
The moment he fell, only Joan Anshan knew, and he felt finally relieved.
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After learning about Jian Shou's accident on June 2017, 6, Qiao Anshan kept running to the government and police stations.
Because he couldn't produce a legal proof of his relationship with Jian Shou, he was not eligible to obtain any valid information about Jian Shou, and he couldn't even apply for missing persons.
He rushed to City C to find Jian Shou's biological parents, but they had already separated and had their own children, and they didn't want to take care of Jian Shou's affairs anymore, and the grandmother who raised Jian Shou to adulthood also passed away eight years ago .
Qiao Anshan didn't believe that the hearts of parents could be so cold, so he ran to them several times.
Father Jian finally couldn't help but yelled: "I knew this poor kid was nothing good, and he got involved with a man in a disgusting way, so I should die like this, I can't afford to lose face!"
It doesn't matter how Jian's father drives him away, but Jian Shou's life and death are his untouchable scales!
Joan Anshan picked up Father Jian's collar, and his eyes showed ruthlessness: "I think you are Ah Shou's father, so I have been patient with you, but since you don't recognize him, I dare to beat you to death!"
The creases on Father Jian's face trembled, showing a fearful expression, he pushed Joan Anshan away: "If you come again later, I'll call the police!" Then he closed the door of the house.
Qiao Anshan stood outside, looking at the locked door, suddenly his whole body became cold. No one wanted to love Ah Shou when he was a child.
Jian's mother was his and his last hope. The security guards in the high-end community stopped Qiao Anshan from allowing him to enter, so he had to climb over the wall again.
He knocked on the door and no one answered, so he just waited until the sun went down and saw Jane's mother and family slowly returning.
When Jian's mother saw him, her face changed, the gentle smile on her face became stiff, she tightly held the child's hand, and she glanced at her husband nervously.
The man gave Qiao Anshan a cold look, picked up the child and entered the door, Jian's mother yelled at him helplessly, and the man only said one sentence: "Quickly finish it."
Jian's mother's heart froze, filled with fear, the man has a strong chauvinism, he hates her having contact with the previous family, and he doesn't even let her recognize Jian Shu.
The man's economic conditions are very good, but she has no job. She now relies on the man for her stable and prosperous life.
She also has a smart and cute little son, who will be filial to her in the future...
Mother Jian's eyes flashed slightly, she didn't want anything or anyone to disturb her current life.
Qiao Anshan looked at her silently, he could find Jian Shou's shadow in Jian's mother's eyebrows, they all looked very gentle and kind, but Qiao Anshan knew that only A-Shou was really kind.
Because he had been rejected too many times, he could only wait for her to speak first.
Mother Jian frowned, restraining her impatience, her pretentious gentleness made her unable to speak harsh words.
"I hope you don't come to disturb my life anymore. I have nothing to do to help you. Xiao Shou is no longer in our household registration book."
Joan Anshan walked a little closer to her, his tall body gave off a sense of oppression, and Mother Jian stepped back unconsciously: "What do you want to do?"
Then she saw this young man kneeling straight in front of her.
Qiao Anshan stared at her and said word by word: "Things on the paper can be changed, but the flesh and blood connected by blood can't be changed for a lifetime. Even if you don't want to admit it, Ah Shou is also your son. He doesn't know whether he is alive or dead now. Can you be safe at night?" Sleeping?"
Kneeling is an extremely humiliating thing, but Qiao Anshan is willing to do anything for Jian Shou: "I will always kneel here until you agree."
Jian's mother took a deep look at him: "It's up to you!" Then she turned and walked into the house without saying a word.
Xiao Shou is probably dead, why would she ruin her current happiness because of a dead person?Shouldn't people give up something for themselves?
After nightfall, the cold wind began to blow in slowly. Qiao Anshan was dressed thinly, but his body couldn't be colder than people's hearts.
When he was with Jian Shou, he never knew about his family situation. He always thought that such a gentle and kind person should have a smooth life since childhood and grow up in an environment full of love.
What Qiao Anshan didn't expect was that his A Shou was so lonely when he was a child, and he didn't get half of his parents' love.
That's why when he grew up, Ah Shou longed to be loved so much, but he was afraid of his own love, because he didn't dare to hope that someone would really love him.
Qiao Anshan lowered his head and tensed his back, trying to control his emotions that were on the verge of collapse.
If he could have known this earlier, he would have given Ah Shou enough sense of security, and he would have told him that he loved him.
He was once dominated by his own shame and anger, and he would feel how unfortunate what happened to him when he was a child, but only he has been living under negative emotions, and his A Shou has never vented his anger on anyone.
Joan Anshan gritted his teeth, he is a complete jerk.
By the next morning, all the muscles in Joan Anshan's body were stiff, he had already lost feeling in his knees and calves, and there was a heart-pounding pain from the old wound on his thigh, but his spine remained firm, and he tried his best to hold on. with.
But what he didn't expect was that Jane's mother directly called the police!When he was dragged to stand up by the police, Jane's mother stood in the crack of the door and looked at him.
Qiao Anshan stared at her in despair, his voice was so hoarse: "I take that back, Ah Shou doesn't have a mother like you."
He tried his best to suppress the choking and hatred in his throat: "From now on, I am the only one in his family."
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"Gastric perforation had progressed to bacterial peritonitis and intestinal paralysis, so there was toxic shock."
"There was nothing in your son's stomach when he was sent here. I said why children don't care about their bodies now. Parents, you should persuade them."
"Doctor, my son, will there be a relapse now? It won't get worse."
"Let me tell you this, the operation was a success, and you can resume your normal diet after two weeks of recuperation, but if your son continues to skip meals like this in the future, it will be very easy to get stomach cancer."
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When Qiao's mother came in, she found that Qiao Anshan was already awake. She quickly wiped her red eyes and smiled, "Anshan, you're awake, does the wound hurt?"
Qiao Anshan looked at the ceiling without speaking, like a corpse that had lost its vitality.
Mother Qiao looked at her son who was too thin to be human, and couldn't help shedding tears: "Son, can you tell mom about your discomfort? Mom is very distressed."
Joan Anshan heard her sobbing, and his closed and stiff heart suddenly beat violently twice.
He finally tried to open his mouth: "Mom, why do you think there is such a big difference between human mothers?"
His hoarse voice is like a bellows in disrepair, and every word comes from the heart.
"Mom, my Ah Shou, he obviously has living parents, but they don't want him anymore."
"But I want him, mom, can you try to like him too? He's really nice to me."
"He will wash my clothes for me, he will cook for me, he will persuade me to go to bed early, and he will accommodate me in every possible way."
"He loves me very much, and I love him very much. I want to give him a stable life. I thought we would live a good life forever. We planned to travel together."
Qiao's mother already knew everything about Jian Shou and Qiao Anshan. Her son had a car accident because of this child, and her son became like this because of this child.
But she couldn't resent him no matter what, because her son loved him so much.
She looked at the gentle memories on his face, listened to his tender words, covered her mouth and cried uncontrollably.
But Jian Shou's child is already dead, do people who want to live also die like this?
Joan Anshan's eyes suddenly overflowed with painful emotions: "But Mom, I lost Ah Shou, and I can't find him no matter what."
A longing came from the bottom of his heart: "I'm too tired, I can't hold on anymore, I want to accompany him."
He has no will to live, he doesn't want to live anymore.
Hearing this, Mother Qiao's heart was filled with grief!
She couldn't keep silent anymore, and cried out in great sadness: "An Shan, don't you want your mother? If you are gone, what will my mother do? My mother will not survive."
She began to repeat over and over again: "If you die, I will die too!"
Qiao Anshan listened silently, and gradually calmed down the expression on his face, his eyes turned into a pool of stagnant water again, and after a long time, he said in a low voice: "Mom, I get it, I will live well in the future."
Yes, what qualifications does he have to meet Ah Shou?Living is the most painful punishment.
He closed his eyes, and the flickering tears at the corners of his eyes announced the end of his delusions.
There are many, many regrets in this world. The most painful thing is not that you can't, but that you could have.
Qiao Anshan and Jian Shou could have stayed together for a lifetime, but in the end they parted and died.