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Chapter 27 I don't care

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Thinking about it now, the matter of falling off the cliff is really not as good as it is written in the script.

Before I met an expert and picked up the treasure book, I was forced to the giant rock by the pursuers.The disciples of Huayumen under the giant rock were attacking menacingly, and they attacked faster than I expected, so I fought harder and harder, until the end of the fight, I was already unconscious, and the pain in my body kept encroaching on my body. Reason, I can no longer open my eyes.

When I was about to die, I found that death seemed nothing to be afraid of, it was just a pity.

I don't know how long it took, but I woke up in the darkness.

I, who should have died, was still conscious, and the pain in my body didn't feel for some reason.Is this what it feels like to die?A person is in nothingness, loses all senses, and only has a clear consciousness rampaging... If this is the case, I have to retract the foreword, death is really a terrible thing.

I wanted to hug myself tightly, but forgot that I didn't have a physical feeling at all, and the incomplete feeling instantly wrapped my consciousness.

I had to think of something to divert my attention, it was horrible to be silent like this in complete emptiness.

Huge memories rushed back to the very beginning, and I struggled to wake up everything I had experienced one by one.

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Before becoming Wang Yi, my name was Lu Qian.

In fact, at that time, few people would call me by my first name. Perhaps hundreds of people wanted to be named Lu, but to me, it was just a shackle that made my life extremely difficult.

Because it's a royal surname.

According to the general saying, I should be called "Prince".

Nowadays, people think that the former monarch, Emperor Daqiao, had no heirs, but in fact there were, and there were more than one, but the emperor didn't like these children, so no one was recognized.Most of the children belonged to the mother’s family, and each took their mother’s surname, except for me and Liu Sisi. Sisi’s mother’s family is extremely powerful, so she is the only child who can stay in the palace and be pampered. Even so, her identity is still not recognized, let alone known to the public.

As for me, the reason why I can stay in the palace is because my mother died after giving birth to me. Those people think that I have nowhere to go. So I was locked in the palace.

Twice in my life I have had great expectations, the first time was before I was born.Those old-fashioned loyal ministers and good generals did not know that the emperor had an heir, and they just cultivated a woman for their so-called "righteous way". This person is my mother. She accepted the arrangement of her master when the emperor was out on a parade. The emperor drugged the love, and the emperor who didn't like women at all had sex with her in a delirious state, and the emperor didn't even know about it.After that, my mother was pregnant with me contentedly, waiting for her "right way" to be realized, but what she waited for was not a bright future, but a difficult childbirth.

Later, according to Lao Zhang, she had a choice at that time, to protect the adults or to protect the children, she chose to protect me without hesitation, and she was gone before those "loyal ministers" even spoke.

Until she died, she felt that she was a heroine who was loyal to the country and the emperor, how ridiculous and sad.

She was the first person to die because of me.

Maybe it's because I was born with disasters. I am different from ordinary children. I am too precocious to forget everything.No matter which stone I knocked on the day before yesterday, or a few leaves fell from a tree in the afternoon, or Liu Sizhang came and poked me a few times, I will never forget any of these trivial things, and I will not When talking, I first learned to remember things, so headaches and fainting became commonplace.But those who brought me up didn't know my photographic memory, they only knew that I was a child with a congenital deficiency, not good enough to inherit the throne, so they attributed it to my mother's poor constitution, and at the same time gave up on me.But even so, my surname is Lu, and I was handed over to the palace when I was over one year old.

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In this absurd palace city, people who are rejected by the emperor basically have no way out, and I am the same. I can still remember the scene when I was crawling to find food. If someone finds out, I will not only be punished, Also starve.

When I got older, I finally found a way out from a certain little eunuch who was sold into the palace because of his poor family. Seeing that I looked like him, he felt sorry for me and was willing to take some extra food. Rescue me, thanks to him, I grew up to be three or four years old in good health, and gradually looked a little fresh, but the person who rescued me lost his life because of an accident in the palace.

Liu Sizhang, who was still called A Liu at that time, would occasionally follow his adoptive father into the palace, and when his adoptive father went to do the work, he would come to me, and A Liu would bring some food and help me with everything, But I can't live on him alone.

Without a source of food, I can only make deals with other people. Who can imagine that a prince has to do odd jobs to make a living.Working as an OEM is considered good. After all, no matter how smart a four-year-old child is, he can't do heavy physical work. Most of the time, adults like to take advantage of my characteristics as a child.

Those people will kill by my hand.

As a prince, I have two selling points. One is precocity. Although I am still a child, my mind is already like that of an eleven or twelve-year-old boy, and I can understand the intentions of others. The other is freedom. People control me, which means that I can move quietly in many places in the palace without restriction.

The so-called assassination is really clumsy. There are not many things a child can do, either add medicine to the tea, or stick a poisonous needle in the pillow, because my mind is as thin as a hair, not only can I succeed, but I have never exposed it Pass.

When I was young, I had no sense of right and wrong. I had to choose between death and murder. No one would help me. I didn’t believe in any middle options. If I wanted to live, I had to fight for my life.No one came to teach me benevolence, righteousness and morality, and I didn't have the energy to think about it.

Later, Lu Si was born, and she became the second child living in Miyagi, but the treatment was completely different from mine.With the backing of her mother, she can live a good life even if she doesn't understand anything.

To be like Luth, as the apple of my mother's eye, to live a good life in the palace is simply a fantasy to me.I only have an old padded jacket that looks good, which is considered the most valuable possession, but she has everything I want at that time, and a pearl flower on her hair can even buy my life.

It would be a lie to say I wasn't jealous, I even hated her at the time, and without her I wouldn't have known how much better my life could have been.She and I are clearly the emperor's children, but there is a big difference between them.

Later, Lu Si became Liu Sisi.

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When I was five years old, the atmosphere in the palace changed suddenly.The emperor and the queen who don't see each other often are together, and for the first time I stood in front of my biological father, he smiled hard at me, and gave me two candies, I have never eaten such a thing , the greedy look in his eyes was too obvious, he found that I still wanted to eat, so he brought that plate of candy in front of me, and said something like "God damn emperor, how could he treat a child like this", in front of his face He patted my head with embarrassment.

Since then, my treatment has suddenly improved. I have a brocade quilt, three meals a day, and charcoal in winter, and he often visits me and talks to me strangely.Like something like "I'm not actually your father, but it's good to have your son", "I hope you don't have mental illness", "It would be great if I could bring you to my world".

It must be admitted that that year brought about a great change in me. I changed from being silent to eloquent, and I no longer cringed as before when I walked, and I dared to make my own demands.Most importantly, I didn't kill any more.Just like Lu Si, I have also become a child, and Lu Si will come to me in a daze and play with me. Although the content of the game is really boring, she is very interesting, I don’t know That's what a child is like, and I can finally treat her like a younger sister.

It just didn't last long.

Although this "father" tried his best to turn the tide, it was still too late, and after all the ups and downs, Da Qiao finally had his curtain call.Dad said goodbye to me, he asked me not to be sad, he just went back to where he was, and asked me to live my life well.

In fact, I know even if he doesn’t tell me that he is not my biological father, even if his body is, neither is his mind.That emperor never looked me in the eye, but my father always smiled sincerely at me.

He may be a fairy, but unfortunately I can't follow him to the sky.

That was the last time I saw him. After that, a group of people appeared out of nowhere and led me to a strange place, where the five-year-old me and Wang Xi met for the first time.It's just that I didn't take this matter to heart at that time, I just wanted to go back to see my father, but when I returned to the palace again, my father had disappeared.

I was sent to Huayumen again, and there were several children with me, including Liu Sisi. After a little thought, you can understand what those children are for. There are only two real heirs. It's blindfolding.

I just think they didn't have a good pregnancy, other than that, I have no sympathy, and I can't protect myself, so I can't care about other people.

The Huayumen at that time was not the current Huayumen, it was not on the island, the sect was small and there were few people, internal competition was not as fierce as it is now, Hua Qizheng is 26 years old, he does not look like the owner of the gate, more like a big Brother, I can see that he doesn't like me, but I can also see that he didn't intend to harm me.

Waiting for me there is my elder brother who is the queen of the dynasty, Jiu Fangrong, the uncle of the country. It was his idea to deceive the eyes. He let me live here with peace of mind. Then a bouncing girl took Liu Sizhang's hand and walked to me. In front of you, this is Jiufang Ruyun.

Life in Huayumen was not good, but fortunately, I have company. Ruyun and Aliu, who are a few years older than me, have been with me, and Liu Sisi has been by my side, but she has a new one. Mom, I don't recognize me, but that's okay, she is a lucky child, she shouldn't know too much.

In this way, day after day, the days passed slowly and leisurely.But judging from the expressions of the adults, the situation outside should be getting worse and worse.Until one day, the flags on the street suddenly changed colors, and there were firecrackers everywhere, and I realized that I might never see my father again.

But he is right, I have to live a good life, if these people still treat me like a prince, then I will not hesitate to rely on them to live a good life.

For the second time since then, I have had high expectations from others.

It's funny to think about it, the world is peaceful, I am like a hungry dog ​​in the palace, no one will really treat me as a prince, but when the dynasty changes, I suddenly become a favorite, and I used to not even look at me Loyal ministers and good generals, one after another picked me up.

All the wandering princes were wiped out by the new forces, but I was protected by a few people who lived in the court and traveled in the rivers and lakes, and became the only orphan of the previous dynasty.They finally discovered my ability to never forget, and they all thought that I was the chosen one, the hope of restoring the country.

But where do I want to restore the country, I just want to live a better life as my father said.I will not tell the truth, let them provide me with food and drink.Thinking about it now, I was still too young at that time to notice the abnormality, and I only knew to try my best to live a better life.

A year later, Hua Qizheng confessed Jiufangrong's hiding place to the new ruler.

So Jiu Fangrong became the second person who was not killed by me but died because of me.

In order to create opportunities for my protectors and me to escape, he deliberately led his pursuers to the palace left by the former emperor.After I transferred to the Bronze Sect, news of the death of Jiu Fangrong, the uncle of the former dynasty, also spread to the Bronze Sect.

Soon, the news of the extermination of the Jiufang clan, where the former queen and uncle belonged, spread all over the world. Everyone knew that the Jiufang family and their servants were buried for the former dynasty. Aunt Wen and Jiufang Ruyun were left behind, Aunt Wen left her life because of Hua Qizheng, and Jiufang Ruyun... In name, she was already dead, and among the children who were sent to Huayumen with me, one of them took her place.

Ruyun actually liked that child very much, and he played with that child with Liu Sizhang all day long. Because of this, it was difficult for uninformed bystanders to distinguish Ruyun from that child, which made Jiu Fangrong temporarily decide to use that child to confuse their eyes.

As for why I knew about it, it was because I was listening outside the door when Jiu Fangrong set up this trick.I knew he was going to die, and I knew the kid was going to die, but I didn't do anything. Even though I felt uneasy, I still felt that nothing was more important than being alive.

However, when I really heard the news of Jiufangrong's death, I began to doubt myself.

Although he is adhering to the way of loyalty to the emperor in his heart and keeping a certain promise, but in the end he is kind to me.

On the way to escape, Ruyun cried and beat me. She said that it was all my fault. Without me as the prince, my uncle’s family members and friends would not have died, and everyone would not have thought about restoring the country. If I died in the palace In the middle, you must not hide and hide like this. Many people will die for me in the future, so I had better die immediately.

Most of the facts are exactly as she said, but Uncle Wu covered her mouth, and then Ruyun was locked up. Liu Sizhang lowered his head and hoarse voice, saying that Ruyun was feeling uncomfortable, I hope I don't take these words to my heart go.

But why should I mind? Ruyun's performance is the most ordinary performance of a normal person.

During my transfer to the Bronze Sect, many people died along the way, all because of me.I can't count the number of people who died because of me. In order to keep me, they kept using themselves as bait to divert the attention of the pursuers.I have heard of their deaths time and time again, or witnessed the moment of their death.Either early in the morning or at night, Jiufang Ruyun's cries and Liu Sizhang's sobs mixed together and reached my ears, and I began to have nightmares all night long.I want to forget, but I can't even forget.

"Lu Qian" was killed countless times by those who were chasing us, but it wasn't me who died every time.

The ability to recite it when I hear it, never forget it with my photographic memory, the ability that once made me secretly happy, has now become a tool of torture for me.

At that time, I even started to hate my father. It was he who made me a normal child. I gradually felt guilty and sympathetic, but he didn't teach me how to forget and not care.

But in the end I can't bear to hate him, I can only hate myself.

I'm starting to hate myself.

Guilt and pity, once awake, never go back to sleep, and I just toss and turn with them.

The author has something to say:

Wang Yi possesses a super memory and is a genius with all the elements.

If his father hadn't died and the dynasty hadn't changed, he might really be able to ascend to the throne of God