Black Powder Monologue Diary

Chapter 67

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To be honest, I was kind of intimidated.Not afraid.It's just that I have been on the mountain for so long and haven't contacted Ji Shanye for a long time. My timidity and nervousness made me dare not speak to Ji Shanye.Although, I really want to hear Ji Shanye's voice.

It's okay if it's inconvenient.Ji Shanye said again.

I'm afraid this is the last time I will contact Ji Shanye.I couldn't bear to give up this opportunity, so I hurriedly typed, it was convenient.

Soon after the news was sent, Ji Shanye called.

"Hello?" His deep and magnetic voice reached my ears along the weak current.I really haven't heard his voice for a long time, and I felt like crying for a while.

"Are you listening?" Ji Shanye said.

"Yeah." I didn't dare to speak too much to hide my emotions at the moment.

"Going down the mountain?" Ji Shanye asked.

"Yeah." I nodded, although he couldn't see it.

"Now, are you still busy with work?" He asked again.

"It's okay." I felt that my answer seemed a little indifferent, but I didn't dare to say more, because I was really afraid that I would cry, and if I did, it would be difficult for me to explain.

Ji Shanye should hate the crying and entangled ex.

"Is the project at your school... over?" Ji Shanye said.

"It's almost there," I said, "but there's still a little finishing touch."

"Then do you want to stay in Fuya Mountain for a while?" Ji Shanye asked.

"Ah."

"How long will you stay?"

"Not sure yet."

"When will you return to City B?"

I paused for a few seconds, because I never thought that Ji Shanye would ask me this question. "Not sure."

Ji Shanye didn't seem to be disgusted with my questions.I thought about it and said, "Maybe in April."

"Yeah." Ji Shanye said: "You can call me when you come back, and I'll treat you to a meal, which is a welcome."

I was a little surprised by what he said, and when the words of refusal reached my lips, I retracted them again, and remained silent for a long time.

"Don't you still mind what happened before?"

I heard Ji Shanye's soft laughter on the phone, he said: "The past is over, what's wrong? Even if we break up, we can still have a meal together."

Ji Shanye seems to regard me as a friend after the breakup.

We broke away from intimacy and became a pair of friends who could have dinner together.This result should be good, right?I just don't know why, but my heart is a little sour.

"Okay." I said to Ji Shanye.

"Yeah." Ji Shanye said, "Then we'll meet again when you come back."

2022. 3, 14

The finishing touches came sooner than I thought, and as of today, all the work in Fuya Mountain has been completed.The teacher is going back to City D and will leave by plane tomorrow morning.I will go back to City B with my senior, and we will be on the plane tomorrow night.

Do you want to tell Ji Shanye that I'm going back to City B tomorrow?I'm a little unsure.

I wanted to meet him, but was afraid to meet him.If we really met, I would definitely be like a dumb person, not knowing what to say.

Forget it, wait a few more days.When I go back to school and get settled, I'll see what day is right and tell him about my return.Besides, he shouldn't care about such trivial matters.

I hope I don't look like a fool when I meet Ji Shanye.It will not make him feel that the ex he has dated is a very stupid and stupid person.

2022. 3, 15

I arrived in City B at three o'clock in the morning, and I didn't feel sleepy.

After staying on the mountain for a long time, now that I am back in City B, I feel very warm.I didn't feel this way before.

Counting the time, I have been away for almost a year.

The heating at the airport was fully turned on. It was obviously March, but it felt like summer, except that the air was a bit dry.

When I walked past the central customer service guide, my footsteps stopped, and my eyes looked at the electronic advertising screen on the wall more than ten meters away.

It's Ji Shanye.To be precise, it was Ji Shanye's mobile phone advertisement.

He was holding the phone, facing me sideways, with a slight smile.He was wearing a spotless, well-tailored white suit, his hair was combed back, and his face was flawless, too perfect to be a real person.

Until now, I still can't change the habit of staring at his billboard.

"Why didn't you stop?" The senior had already walked to the front, turned to look at me, and walked back.

"Nothing." I stopped looking and continued walking.

"Where are you going back soon? The school dormitory should not be open at this time." The senior asked me.

"Let's find a hotel to live in first." I said.

"Go to my place, it's so late, don't bother, I happen to have a spare room in my place." The senior said.

"No, don't bother you." I said.

"What's the trouble? You helped me a lot when I was on the mountain before."

I can't insist on rejecting the kindness of the senior, otherwise it will seem a little too unkind, so I agreed.

"Okay, then I will trouble you today."

The senior smiled: "What's the matter." He said: I asked a friend in the school before that the dormitory building seems to be under renovation recently, and the noise and facilities are not good. It is better for you to find a house outside in the end. "

"If you can't find a place to live, you can stay with me for the time being," he said.

It was almost morning when we arrived at the senior's house.Neither of us had breakfast, so we said our goodbyes and went back to our room to catch up on sleep.

2022. 3, 17

I have been busy at school for the past two days, and I don't have time to find a house, so I have to stay at the senior's house for a while.I don't want to live with him for nothing and pay him rent, but he said with a straight face that I wasn't his friend.

We lingered for a while, but the matter of money was still nothing.In the end, I sneaked the cash into his study anyway.

After I came back, there were too many things. Most of my life trajectory revolved around the school, either writing reports or watching experiments in the laboratory.Meals are also taken care of at will.

Because there is no rest time, I can't think about whether to contact Ji Shanye, but I am always afraid, I am afraid of seeing him.But what scares me the most is the look in his eyes that treats me like an ordinary person.

I'm afraid that in his eyes, I'm no different from other people, so I'd rather not meet, don't think about it, let it be.

The work has finally come to an end, and I have some time to rest. I plan to go to the supermarket at night, buy some food, and cook for myself at home.Get a good night's sleep, and then get up early tomorrow to find a house. You can't just live with the senior like this all the time.

It's just that I didn't expect to meet Ji Shanye on the way back from the supermarket.

This was the first time we met after a year of our breakup.