Black Powder Monologue Diary

Chapter 64 Chapter 63

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For a moment I wanted to cry, and the tears welled up in my eyes, but I held back and took them back.On the big screen, when Ji Shanye turned his head and talked gently with the heroine, although I knew the story was false, I was still very jealous of her.

She can openly tell Ji Shanye that she loves him, hug Ji Shanye, and look into his affectionate eyes.I can't do any of these.

Why do you want to watch this movie and make yourself suffer?I can't figure it out, but if I were to stand in front of the cinema again, I think I'd still go in and watch it.

Because, this is probably the only chance to see Ji Shanye.

In the dark, no one will pay attention to the emotion in my eyes, and no one will know about some insignificant private matters between me and Ji Shanye.

When the film was in sweet love, Ji Shanye kissed the beautiful heroine, some people around secretly laughed, I closed my eyes in time, and didn't dare to watch that scene.Anyway, I still can't look at these with a normal heart.

I don't want to see Ji Shanye kissing someone else.After I started dating him, until now, we broke up for a while, and I still don't want to see it.

The end of the movie is still the cliché HAPPY+ENDING.Everyone loves it, except me.

I was the only one walking with my head bowed, silent as if I had watched a tragic movie.

The senior asked me, why do you look unhappy?There is no sad plot in the movie.

Of course I can't be because of Ji Shanye, I just said, nothing, just a little tired.

A few female audience members who had left with us passed behind me, still discussing the film.One of the girls said, I think Ji Shanye and Cai Mengxue are a good match. A few days ago, Cai Mengxue's studio also posted a photo of the two of them together, which made me want to play real CP.

I'll find you a photo of the two of them together, it's really sweet.Also, did you read their interview some time ago, it was full of sugar.

As he walked, the senior stopped.Ask me, why are you crying?

I touched my face, and sure enough there were tears.

I really wanted to explain something to my senior, but I felt like I couldn't hold back my crying once I opened my mouth.So he could only smile at him and continue walking in silence.

He looked at me with weird eyes, but I didn't care about it anymore.

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2021. 7, 15

The teacher's experiment has made a little progress. Our plants are growing very well, and several medicinal plants have been picked for specimens, which will be sent to the laboratory in D City.

When the teacher was free, he chatted with us and said why he wanted to do research in this area.In fact, the reason is very simple, that is, I hope to see flowers and green plants even in places with barren land.

Although it cannot create any economic value, it also makes a great contribution to society.But at least the development of plants in the future is a step with their own participation.

I think he's right.After all, I did not choose this major for employment and money.

17

2021. 8, 1

Downhill again.

Nothing new happened, shopping, counseling, work.

On the 126th day after breaking up with Ji Shanye, we haven't contacted each other again.

He probably forgot about me.

To him, I'm just an annoying ex, and I should stay out of his world.

18

2021. 8, 14

Recently, the mountain is very busy, and the work is monotonous and boring. Fortunately, I can accept it.

I watch the stars every day and sleep well.

The teacher cut my hair by hand. He said that my original long hair was not energetic and looked very gloomy. Once the tweezers were pulled down, my hair became a flat head with uneven bumps.

The senior laughed for a long time, and I asked him if he was ugly.He said that being ugly is not ugly, it is just weird.

It doesn't matter if you're ugly or not, I've already broken up with Ji Shanye, why should I care about my appearance?

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2021. 9, 1

When I went down the mountain and connected to the Internet on my mobile phone, I realized that Ji Shanye had been on the trending search some time ago, and the popularity was still very high, and it still remains high.

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I was at a loss when I saw these popular entries. It’s only been a few days. Why do I feel like everything has changed when I go online again?

The reason is that Ji Shanye had previously rarely accepted an exclusive interview with a character. That interview revealed a lot about Ji Shanye’s private life, and he used this as a selling point, and unabashedly named the interview “Ji Shanye: I’m Not What You See.” Perfect Lover".

I'm actually a little bit less sure that this is what Ji Shanye said, and it feels more like a sentence fabricated by a reporter to exaggerate the gimmick.

For this reason, I watched the interview video in its entirety.One hour and eight minutes, I didn't skip a minute.

The interview video is preceded by a short but powerful introduction to Ji Shanye, and a review of his previous works.The camera turned around, and the scene returned to the interview room, where Ji Shanye and the host were sitting face to face at a table.

I don't know why, but I feel that Ji Shanye sitting in the interview room is much more haggard than before, without the look in his eyes when he laughed before, but this may also be my illusion.Maybe, it's just that I haven't seen him for a long time, so I feel this way.

The host asked: Why did you decide to accept our interview?You seem to seldom participate in character interviews. I remember that the last time you were interviewed was when "Drunk Dream" was just broadcast.

Ji Shanye said: Yes.

The host asked: Is there any reason?

Ji Shanye said: There is no reason, I just wanted to come, so I accepted it.

The host was quiet for a few seconds, and asked: Have you been filming recently?

Ji Shanye said: No, I am resting.

The host said: What do you usually do during the rest time?

Ji Shanye said: Nothing, just read books, exercise, cook and so on.Occasionally I go home to spend time with my family.

The host said: Do you have a lot of communication with your parents at home?

Ji Shanye said: It's okay.

The host said: Will they urge you to get married?At your age.

Ji Shanye said: No.I've talked to them before and they won't push me to get married.

The host said: Have you thought about when to decide?What type do you like?

Ji Shanye said: It looks good.

The host smiled: Is it that simple?Just look good?

Ji Shanye said: Good-looking, doesn't talk too much, likes watching football games, and has crooked eyes when he smiles.

The host felt that this condition was too specific.She even suspected that Ji Shanye was confessing his love to someone off camera.