Black Powder Monologue Diary

Chapter 58 57 I want to see you

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When Lin Yu woke up again, he saw the white ceiling of the hospital in front of him, and someone beside him was calling his name, but the voice seemed to be separated by a layer of fog, and it couldn't reach his heart no matter what.

Everything seems to be eternity.

Lin Yu was discharged from the hospital and soon saw the school psychologist again.He sat silently on the chair without saying a word.Dr. Zhang looked at him quietly as if he had foreseen it long ago, and didn't say anything.

"I remembered everything." Lin Yu said.

"My mother is already dead." Lin Yu smiled wryly, but tears fell down.

"So, after all these years, she was just a fantasy of mine?" Lin Yu said to himself.

She has a new family and a new life, which is just her fantasy.Her mother has actually been stuck in the nightmare of the past.

Dr. Zhang said: "Although I'm sorry, I still want to say that it is actually helpful for you to recall this memory, which means that you can face the past squarely."

"The reason why I suggest you persist in treatment is because your situation is more complicated than what you told me."

Dr. Zhang: "Your grandmother, your friends, including your teacher all know the news of your mother's death, but you don't seem to know. You will see her and talk to her."

"Why did the court convict your father so quickly, not only because he hurt you, but more importantly because of your mother. Otherwise, he would not have been sentenced to more than ten years in prison."

"Your traumatic stress disorder is actually very serious. You forget about your mother's death and imagine another her."

Lin Yu remained silent, Dr. Zhang was quiet for a while, and asked him, "Have you seen her many times?"

Lin Yu didn't speak, and just when Dr. Zhang thought he wouldn't answer, Lin Yu said, "I had a lot of them in junior high school, and I saw her in about a week. Later, when I was older, I didn't see her much. .”

"What was the last time you saw her? Did something happen?"

"It's nothing." What Lin Yu was thinking about was the recent indifference with Ji Shanye.

"I suggested you keep a diary before, have you written it now?"

"I didn't write any more." Lin Yu said.

"Try to continue writing." Dr. Zhang said.

Lin Yu didn't say a word.

At the end of the conversation, Lin Yu asked Dr. Zhang a question.

"Does the treatment mean that I won't be able to see my mother in the future?" Lin Yu asked.

Dr. Zhang looked into his wet eyes and smiled at him: "No. You just change the way to meet her better."

After returning from Dr. Zhang, Lin Yu sat quietly on the school bench. After a while, he called Ji Shanye.

The call was connected quickly, and Lin Yu said to him, "I want to see you, Ji Shanye."

"I want to go see you." Lin Yu desperately wanted to tell Ji Shanye about his affairs, and suddenly he wanted to tell Ji Shanye all about his past.

Ji Shanye didn't ask him the reason, and agreed to book a ticket for him when he came.

Then Lin Yu rushed to the city where Ji Shanye was located. He desperately wanted to throw himself into Ji Shanye's arms, but when he came to Ji Shanye, he stopped outside the last door.

Outside the hotel room, he heard the conversation between Ji Shanye and Tina.

"What do you plan to do after you and Lin Yu?" A female voice, Lin Yu guessed it might be Tina%2C he had heard her talking to Ji Shanye on the phone before.

Lin Yu didn't hear Ji Shanye's answer for a long time.

"I have suppressed the information about Lin Yu according to your intention, but if it comes out again in the future, I may not be able to suppress it."

"I know." Ji Shanye said.

The temperature in Lin Yu's heart slowly dropped.

I was still too impulsive and ignored too many things.He forgot that the relationship between himself and Ji Shanye is not visible.

Ji Shanye was standing in the bright place, and he...

"Don't go to the "Spring Breeze" meet-and-greet, the limelight is getting tight recently, let's talk about it after a while."

"Ah."

Tina looked at Ji Shanye with a frosty face, and still wanted to talk to persuade him to break up with Lin Yu, but before she could speak, Ji Shanye gave her a sharp look. He seemed to know what he was going to say, and opened his mouth in advance : "You know my answer is impossible, so don't say it."

Tina sighed, and finally stood up: "Forget it, I'd better go back first."

Lin Yu dodged outside the door. He came out after seeing Tina leave in the corner.

For a moment, Lin Yu didn't know whether to knock on Ji Shanye's door. He obviously wanted to see him before, but what can he do after seeing him?It will only add trouble to Ji Shanye.

Just when Lin Yu was hesitating, the door in front of him suddenly opened, and Ji Shanye looked at him in surprise.

"Why are you standing here?" Ji Shanye took off his hat: "I'm going to find you."

Lin Yu looked at him, and was pulled into the room by Ji Shanye.

"Why don't you call me when you arrive, so I can pick you up." Looking at Lin Yu's blank expression, Ji Shanye felt that he was a little different from usual, and asked again: "What's wrong with you?"

"It's nothing."

"The reporter found you again?" Ji Shanye was worried about this.

"No." Lin Yu said.

Ji Shanye hugged Lin Yu and sat on the sofa, looked at Lin Yu's haggard face, and asked him, "Why do I feel that you are not in good spirits, what happened?"

Lin Yu shook his head, and in the end he just said, "No, I just got a little sick."

"What disease?" Ji Shanye asked, "Did you go to the hospital?"

Lin Yu didn't dare to look into his eyes, and suddenly felt the urge to cry, but he held back: "Go."

"Don't worry, it will be fine soon." Lin Yu seemed to be comforting himself.

The two hugged each other quietly, and Ji Shanye remembered what Tina told him just now. Some reporters picked up Lin Yu's personal information, and even found out the address of where they lived.

Lin Yu gave Ji Shanye a wake-up call because of the reporter's injury.

When the love affair was exposed, it was not he who was most affected, but Lin Yu.He is just an ordinary person, and everything in the entertainment industry has nothing to do with him.Before being with himself, Lin Yu was not restricted in many things. He could freely go to the streets with other people, watch movies with others in lively places, and go home to enjoy life with peace of mind.

Instead of running back and forth in the hotel like now, just to meet him.Even being blocked by the paparazzi, hiding and worrying about getting hurt.

When Ji Shanye saw Lin Yu was injured, he realized how wrong he had been before.For him, the biggest impact of an open relationship is just a period of silence.But for Lin Yu, it may be a life-changing injury.

He can't let things become irreparable because of his own selfishness.