my private life

Chapter 27

Xiao Yao was indeed sad alone, I was surprised by how quickly she changed from crying to angry, thinking she was angry with me.

I hurriedly put my arms around her and comforted her, "Yaoyao, I didn't mean to blame you, why are you still crying." I pushed her shoulders over so that she faced me.

Xiao Yao obediently turned over and leaned into my arms, with running water still hanging from the corners of her eyes. "I'm not angry with you, I'm not feeling well." Her voice was still nasal.

"Just because of that child?" I asked softly, reaching out to wipe away the tears for her.

Xiao Yao didn't answer, but looked up at me sadly, and said in a low voice, "Fanfan, will you leave me?"

I was surprised again, how could she think of asking this question?Thinking about it again, it wasn't because of Hao Jia that she was sad, but because of my mother's indifference to her.She must be worried that even though I'm out, one day I can't bear the pressure from my family and I might compromise with reality.

"I finally found a good wife, how could I give up so easily." I kissed her cheek again, "Yaoyao, don't worry, I will not give up my choice of life because of external factors, I will never marry in my life People. My mother's attitude will slowly change." I can't give her a promise that lasts forever, but I can guarantee that I will never choose marriage.

Xiao Yao sighed softly, "I thought that as long as we were in love, everything would be easy with love, but, alas..." She shook her head and sighed again.

Seeing her disappointed expression, the problem is more serious than I imagined.I couldn't help asking, "Did I let you down? Have something to say, okay? The sky isn't falling, why are you moaning like this?"

Perhaps because she felt that the topic to be discussed was more serious, Xiao Yao simply sat up from my arms, her hands were holding her legs, and her chin rested on her knees, "First there was Xia Jingyi, and now it is Hao Jia, your mother doesn't like me either. "

I also sat up.Xiao Yao fell in love with me at first sight. The love she imagined and expected must be full of passion, romance and warmth, but the reality is that it is not satisfactory.From the very beginning of our contact, there was Shang Jun between us, and later Hao Jia, all of these became factors that discouraged me.Finally, the relationship between the two people has made substantial progress, but problems have arisen one after another.In less than a month, we have to face the problems she mentioned, except that Xia Jingyi has turned over the article, the family's disapproval and Hao Jia's entanglement, making people helpless.

For Xiao Yao, who has only been in love once and has good expectations for love, these troubles inevitably make her discouraged.

I sat cross-legged across from her, "In my eyes, these are trivial things, not enough to make you doubt my relationship with us. Do you have other concerns? Tell me and let my sister answer your questions. "I ran my fingers through her thick black hair and pressed a kiss to her forehead.

A smile flashed across Xiao Yao's face, and then the cloud covered her eyes again.She hesitated for a while before whispering, "Do you still believe me?"

Where did this word come from?I couldn't help asking, "Why don't I believe you?" Then I thought about it, just now Hao Jia deliberately exposed Xiao Yao's past in front of me, and she might find opportunities to reveal some non-existent things in the future. Yao is in an embarrassing and passive position.And whether I can trust Xiao Yao becomes the key.

Based on my understanding of Xiao Yao these days, she is a smart and straightforward person, so she naturally understands the truth that paper can't hold fire, so she will take the initiative to tell her past.I don't think she will hide anything from me.

"Okay, don't be depressed. Isn't she just Hao Jia, there's no need to let her disturb our relationship. Didn't you also say that as long as our relationship is stable, other things will be resolved." I coaxed, " I think what really concerns us is the problem between the two of us."

Xiao Yao finally raised her head. She looked at me puzzled, thought for a while, and said, "Are you worried that our personalities are not suitable? I know that my temper is a little irritable, and I will try my best to change it. You won't Don't want me because of this?" Her voice was pitiful, which was a huge difference from the violent and severe treatment of Hao Jia before.

I couldn't help but feel love and pity, moved to Xiao Yao's side, and hugged her into my arms, "Yaoyao, don't worry, I will love you well. It's just that your violent temper can't break out frequently." I squeezed Pinch her cheek.

I don’t know why whenever she is leaning in my arms like a gentle little sheep, I feel “maternity” from the bottom of my heart, thinking of coaxing her softly, just like when I was hugged by Xia Jingyi back then. As in my arms.Only now the roles are different.

It wasn't until the light in the room dimmed that Xiao Yao straightened up from my arms. "I'm so hungry, I didn't dare to eat enough at noon."

I didn't wait for her to get out of bed, so I folded and sat on the edge of the bed, "Come on, sister, wash your face behind your back, then let's go to dinner and watch a movie, okay?"

She obediently spread it on my back, and was carried into the bathroom by me giggling.

Xiao Yao was worried all afternoon that I would leave her, and she was also afraid that I would not trust her. After all, I did not give her a sense of security.It's no wonder that we have only been together for a few months, and the running-in period has not yet ended. Whether the relationship can last will have to pass the test of time.And I also know that these concerns cannot be relieved by a few sweet words.

Love not only needs passion, but also long-term care to last forever.I hope Xiao Yao can realize my love for her from my actions.

As for my mother and Hao Jia, it is not a fundamental problem in my eyes.The days are still long, and no one can guarantee that such and such troubles will not appear again in the future. The key lies in whether we can resist the "interference" from the outside world and live our little days wholeheartedly.

And so it is.In the following days, I only went home every other week, and I no longer stayed at home overnight. Sometimes I would go to the bun shop for lunch at noon, and I would take Xiao Yao to eat her favorite pot stickers on Saturdays and Sundays when I was free.

For my sudden change of attitude, my mother is like a mirror in her heart, and she knows the reason.But she never mentioned my personal problems to me after that time.Of course, she was still very polite to Xiao Yao, with a sense of alienation in her politeness.

Xiao Yao is also very polite to my parents. When she goes to restaurants, she always brings gifts such as fruit, cigarettes and alcohol, and my mother accepts them naturally.It's just that I couldn't catch my mother's real thoughts from her indifferent expression.I am waiting patiently, one day, she will take the initiative to invite Xiao Yao home.

On the contrary, Xiao Yao's parents are very kind to me, they will call on Friday and ask Xiao Yao to take me back.Aunt Liu Wen can cook a large table of delicious meals, and the family of five—this is what Xiao Yao’s father said personally—sit together to eat and chat happily.

At Xiao Yao's house, I will meet Hao Jia who came uninvited.Hao Jia still looks helpless in front of Xiao Yao.As long as she is in front of me, she will deliberately talk about the past between her and Xiao Yao, and the tone is infinitely ambiguous and full of intimacy.

Once she does this, she will be looked at or scolded by Xiao Yao.But Hao Jia seems to have a tendency to be masochistic. The more Xiao Yao pulls her face down towards her, the more she thinks it is a disguised intimacy, on the contrary, she seems to be more excited after being encouraged.

After a few times, Xiao Yao also understood Hao Jia's clumsy tricks, so she simply ignored her and let her talk to herself.Later, when I saw her coming home, I would go to the kitchen to help Aunt Liu Wen cook.Because of the loss of the "audience", Hao Jia gradually became bored. She no longer appeared every time we went home, and she came less and less often.

This made me secretly relieved, thinking that with time, Hao Jia had given up on her elder sister Yaoyao.However, I guessed wrong.

At the end of October, Hao Jia was going to the United States. Before leaving, she actually found a hotel and said she wanted to have a serious talk with me.

Hao Jia talked a lot, the purpose is that she is not liked by Xiao Yao now, it is because she has not really matured and has no ability.When she comes back from the United States three years later, she will start a formal "love" battle with me.

"I have the right to love her and pursue her. I'll tell you that I will definitely come back." Hao Jia said confidently.Because of nervousness and excitement, she pointed her fingers back and forth on the floor, and her knuckles kept making beeping sounds.

Ordinarily, I should just laugh off her selfish and stupid thoughts.But I really can't figure it out, now, this bandit-like theory put forward by Hao Jia is a kind of "ability" worth showing off in the eyes of some people.Under the banner of love, to satisfy the personal desire to conquer.In their eyes, it is such a self-satisfying thing to win love with a knife.

Her self-righteous look and assertive tone also annoyed and disgusted me.I resisted the urge to interrupt her several times and listened to her words patiently.

"You say your love declaration so brazenly, it sounds right, you have the right to love anyone. It seems that everyone has this right. According to your theory, is it true that if someone falls in love with your mother , you can open the door of your house to confess your love and negotiate with your father. If there is such a person, I think you will give him a big slap in the face without hesitation." I stared at him contemptuously. she.

Hao Jia probably didn't expect me to use her parents as a metaphor. She was stunned for a moment, and immediately responded with displeasure and disdain, "My parents are a formal couple. If your love with Sister Yaoyao is unbreakable, you still worry about me. Insert it?"

I sighed and shook my head wryly. "Do you still want to be the touchstone of our love? The relationship between Xiao Yao and I is like the vast majority of the same sex, which is not protected by the law. So you can tell me confidently that you want to compete with me? Think about it, you just now What you said, will someone tell you in the future. I think you go to the United States not only to learn cultural knowledge, but also to improve your mind. I understand what you mean, and I have finished my words, you should go .” I pointed to the door.There is really nothing to say to such an unreasonable person.

Hao Jia sneered, raised her head and said, "Anyway, I'll be back in three years. Just wait." She turned and walked out.

I said to her back, "Xiao Yao and I are waiting for you to come back, and I hope you will be ashamed of what you said today in three years' time."

My answer was a loud slamming door.I know I'm naive, people who are inherently selfish like this don't change with age and experience.

Of course, I wouldn't worry about what Hao Jian could do to separate Xiao Yao and me in three years' time. The experience of these years told me that what really defeats love is more than external factors.More often than not, we beat ourselves up.

What I am more concerned about is the running-in with Xiao Yao's character.Because during this period, we quarreled more than once, and the most serious one was that she ran away from home.