What is your choice? ?

Chapter 109

You have chosen [C. Break the cup in your hand]

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At that moment, time seemed to slow down suddenly.

Many images have flashed in your mind, the joy of being able to start over after the first death, the moment when Sheng Dian and Cheng Jin were killed one after another for freedom, the moment when Teacher Yu's silent face was covered with a white cloth, the moment when the leaves wiped Go to the tenderness in your eyes after your tears, the malice shown by Director Jiang after tearing off the sanctimonious disguise, Yuan Yuan's elusive words...

Too many emotions pour out like unscrewed sparkling water bottles, making you tremble your eyelashes and stop looking at Ye Zi's earnest eyes.

It's too real, you think, whether it's the memory that was labeled as "hypnotized", or the anxiety and expectation on Ye Zi's face at this time.

How much you hope that everything in front of you is a reality-you have a boyfriend who loves you and is about to talk about marriage, a job you love, and the diseases caused by childhood shadows have been completely cured.

You have never encountered a murderer or a neuropathy with an acting personality, you have never experienced death over and over again, and you have not caused Teacher Yu to commit suicide because of your cowardice and evasion.

All physical pain and psychological torture are false treatments. The reality is much better than your imagination, and your future is full of hope.

You never had blood on your hands, and you don't need to live in the shadow of guilt all your life.

Although you don't remember every little thing about being with Ye Zi in the past five years, his love and prudence for you let you understand that as long as you promise, then he will definitely fulfill the promise in his words, and will never change until death.

He will take care of you, impress you with every detail in life, and remind you of those sweet memories in the past.You both have steady jobs and maybe adopt a beautiful, bright kid when you're older.You will grow old gradually, but your relationship will not gradually dim because of the passage of time, but you will be more grateful for each other's company because of the years of mutual affection...

You no longer need to be suspicious and jealous, and you no longer need to worry about your only life—after all, a person’s life is only so long, and there is only one life, and the chances of encountering those unlucky things are very small.

This is a materialistic world, the so-called world consciousness is just your fantasy, and you are naturally not the protagonist of this world.

You are just an ordinary person, an ordinary person who yearns for a peaceful life.

But is this really the case?Is everything you see really reality?

You heard Ye Zi's self-blame sigh after seeing you for a long time.He took your hand, kissed you again on the back of your hand, and told you that he was too impatient, you don’t need to reply now, he can wait, hoping to exchange his sincerity for your sincerity...

You just kept shaking your head, still closing your eyes and unwilling to look at him.

If all of this is false, then no matter how beautiful it is, it will be false.

Yes... Ever since you discovered the clues of the water cup, you have decided that everything in front of you is an illusion, and the "hypnosis" they keep emphasizing is reality.

You are not so noble, do not want to live in a false and beautiful world.

You are just a little disappointed, and the "answer" hastily revealed before you can find out the truth of the matter, as if mocking your hard work all the way down.Regardless of whether the truth is a dirtier reality or a beautiful blueprint, you hope that your persistence will have a result, not a joke-like fairy tale.

You don't want to sink into this world, at least until you discover the truth, you can't convince yourself to put aside all doubts and blindfold yourself with peace of mind.

——Yes, you can't stop in this comfortable world.

The moment you made up your mind, you suddenly opened your eyes, loosened your fingers, and the glass slid down from your palm.

You watched the glass gradually tilt in the air, and the transparent liquid slowly poured out from the mouth of the glass, playing back frame by frame in your retina like a slow-motion movie.At that moment, you are suddenly in a trance, thinking of yourself not long ago.

If you were asked whether to choose a real world full of dangers or a false world full of beauty when you first remembered, you would definitely choose the latter without hesitation.

So, when did you start to actively seek the truth behind things?What made you, an inexperienced otaku, have the courage to go to the present, instead of breaking down and committing suicide?

You feel as if you have changed.But this change is not a sudden change in personality, but a gradual fullness of personality, as if a stick figure has been processed twice and recolored.

You are no longer that simple-minded otaku who is heartless all day long. You have learned to restrain your emotions and understand what negative emotions are.

You are no longer a piece of blank paper, the pattern that was originally printed on the paper emerges little by little with the passage of time.At the same time, new patterns are painted on top of the old ones, so the two blend together and become a brand new painting.

You watched the glass of water slowly fall in the air, and at the moment when the bottom of the glass was about to touch the floor, a heartfelt doubt popped out of your mind.

What exactly is real?

——The naive you in the past are still the you who have experienced the world; this dreamlike world is still the world full of danger; the gloomy face that looks exactly like you in the memory is still the one with confusion and bewilderment s face……

You heard something explode near your ear, penetrated your eardrum, and reached your brain. At that moment, the sound of rapid breathing between your nostrils was amplified countless times, and you seemed to see a flower in front of your eyes. Glittering and fleeting fireworks in the night sky...

"No—!!" You heard an exasperated voice blending into the noisy noise, like a slender needle piercing straight into your consciousness, but was blocked by some invisible barrier, " Stop! I tell you to stop!!..."

You think that voice seems familiar, but you can't concentrate on that cry.

In the dark, you seem to hear the ticking of the second hand, and you can see the distance between the glass wall and the floor shortened from 5 mm to 3 mm, from 3 mm to 2 mm, and then from 1 mm to 0.5 mm...

near, near...

You hold your breath, your heart beats faster and faster, you can feel that your whole body is trembling slightly, the sweat on your forehead drips on your eyelids, flows into your eyeballs along the gap between your eyelashes...

"Snapped--"

Hearing a crisp sound, you shivered, blinked your eyes, and stood up from your seat reflexively.

"what happened?"

You staggered and leaned on the edge of the table, shook your head, and looked down, and saw Dr. Li sitting across from you looking at you blankly, as if he didn't know what happened.

You haven't been able to get away from the situation just now, and after being stiff for several seconds, you straighten your neck and look at the nameplate standing on the desk, which looks like the word "Li Xin" is written on it.

Dr. Li stared at your face in bewilderment, and it took a while before he suddenly smiled: "Are you nervous about the broken cup?" He stood up, quickly glanced at the mess on the ground, and turned to you He waved his hand.

"It's okay, the glass is not worth much, put it there first, and clean it up after you leave."

You turned your head in a daze, and looked down, only to find that there was a glass broken in two from the middle lying beside your feet. The floor was full of water stains, and the carpet around your left foot was stained a dark color. .

"Anyway, it's just water, it doesn't matter," Dr. Li pressed the fountain pen, tapped the paper with the tip of the pen, trying to get your attention back.

"Did you just talk about dual personalities?"

You suddenly raised your head and stared straight at Dr. Li, but he lowered his eyes, as if he didn't see your piercing gaze, and sighed silently.

"The disease of dual personality is not as simple as you think. The reason why dual personality is called dual personality is that two different people live in the same skin. You have neither short-term fragmentation nor abnormal mood swings recently. situation, such a self-diagnosis is too hasty."

Dr. Li then asked you a few more questions, and while writing notes, he compared the record sheet you had last visit to the doctor.After a while, he raised his head and showed you a relieved smile.

"Don't worry, it's still a stress reaction caused by anxiety and excessive stress. You don't have a dual personality, it's just that you can't accept what you did before because of amnesia. This is normal, and it takes time to recuperate."

Dr. Li paused when he said this, the smile in his eyes faded, and his expression became a little serious.

"However, judging from your answer just now, you seem to be a bit depressed. You don't need to take medicine, but you must be vigilant."

You froze, and asked back in disbelief, "Depression?"

"It's okay, it's nothing to be surprised about. Depression has become a modern disease." Dr. Li shook his pen lightly, but looked at you with solemn eyes.

"However, in order to prevent the situation from getting worse, I suggest that you can refer to the Morita therapy and write down the unpleasant things in your life... Of course, this does not have to be a diary. You can also use your imagination to write down those unpleasant people and things. Adapt it and write it as you expected..."

You talked a lot with Dr. Li, but most of the time he talked, you listened.

You didn't stand up from your seat until Dr. Li glanced at your watch and told you tactfully that he had other patients coming up.

The moment you turned to leave, the half-shattered glass on the ground came into your eyes again.You can't help but pause your steps, your eyes firmly glued to the piece of glass.At that moment, you actually saw the broken glass wall as a mirror broken in half.

Your face is reflected in the mirror—one half is smooth and complete, and the other half of your face is broken and ghostly reflected like fine spider silk.

It was already eight o'clock in the evening when you stepped out of the consulting room, and the streets were bustling with people after get off work and school.You don't have anything important to do, so you simply follow the direction of the crowd while trying to sort out your messy thoughts.

Too many things happened today, to the extent that your brain is unmanageable. In order to sort out your thoughts, you start from the beginning and organize them in chronological order.

You start to play back the clips in your mind, from the scene where you had the first scene with Yuan Yuan in the daytime, to the scene where you and Yuan Yuan broke up because of that conversation, and then to the part where you went to Dr. Li’s clinic ...

Your train of thought is incoherent at first, until after recalling a series of events that happened in Dr. Lee's clinic, your brain starts to become disorganized.

You vaguely remember that things went wrong after you indicated that you might have a double personality.It wasn't until you glanced at the water glass in your hand when you were proposed by Ye Zi that you suddenly realized that when you "leaved" the clinic, the glass water glass that Dr. Li handed you was not in the room, so you thought it was an illusion and fell Broke the cup in my hand.

When you come back to your senses again, you find that everything has returned to the moment when you admit that you have a dual personality.Only this time, Dr. Li didn't turn over the nameplate on the table, didn't mention hypnotherapy, and didn't tell you that your guess was correct.

He even said that you have signs of depression, and advised you to follow the Morita therapy and write unpleasant things into stories.

How does this treatment sound like writing a novel? You sigh helplessly when you think of this, but before you can completely exhale the breath in your chest, you froze immediately.

novel……

Haven't you been writing novels for several years?

You are standing in the middle of the crowd, and the flow of people bumps off your shoulders, making you stumble, but you don't realize it, your back is wet with cold sweat, and a chill runs from your tailbone all the way , numb your nerves.

You downloaded Xiaolan to write a novel and tried to find a boyfriend to enrich your life experience, but you never knew when you completely forgot about it.

— as if you had never written a novel.

You try to recall the stories you wrote, but you find that you can't recall anything, as if the memory that stores this part has been deliberately dug out, and the emptiness is chilling.

So, is my memory tampered with? ... Or is writing a novel a false setting from beginning to end?

The more you thought about it, the more you shuddered, but before you could recover, the phone in your pocket vibrated suddenly.You took out your phone and saw that it was a text message from Yuan Yuan——

"I don't have a part-time job tonight, you can come and find me anytime."

You were a little dazed, and raised your head slightly, but the next second you were startled by a figure not far away—it was the back of Ye Zi, who seemed to be waiting for the florist to pack the flowers he bought neatly.

You just remembered that since you dated, Leaf would replace the bouquet in the living room with fresh roses every once in a while.

At this time, you choose-

[A. Pretend not to see Ye Zi, go to Yuanyuan's apartment]

【B. First go to the flower shop to find leaves】

[C. Reply to Yuanyuan's text message first]

[D. Ignore Yuanyuan's text message and go to the flower shop to find Ye Zi]